Monday - 5pm

Well, nothing new to report. The bleeding pretty much never came back, and just brown. I have been having some tissue come out. It was weird, today some tissue or something came out of me that looked like a collapsed sac? Almost like a cooked egg white -- actually it reminded me of the egg in egg drop soup, but it was brownish and not round or anything, but you could see grey in it. Who knows. I wanted to really check it out, but if fell in the toilet after there was pee in there, and um - ya, not fishin' that out.

So, nothing new to report. Still crampy/tender and sore. Wondering if I'm just going to feel a gush, or what. I stopped wearing a mega pad. It's driving me bonkers to walk around with one of those things on. I'm tired. Didn't get much sleep last night, and was up at 6am. I wish it was the weekend again. I also feel a bit of anxiety lately. Odd. Usually I don't have any, so it must be from all this m/c crap. I know I'm coming to the end of the road, but the " when" is what I hate.
I wonder if you can have a m/c with only the amount of bleeding I had? I doubt it, but it did cross my mind. I mean, it was like heaving period bleeding for about 1.5 hrs. There was a clot on the pad that looked like liver, and then after that - just the brown stuff.

Sorry this is so gross. Actually this blog is for me to vent, and others going through the same stuff to relate to. I remember googling everything I could about "stories" and such, which I didn't find much. At least not in full detail like mine. This is both the emotional AND physical stuff. Hopefully someone looking for someone else in their shoes can find comfort.
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Well, off to web surf. I'll update later if I have anything new.. ~~~~sigh~~~~

xoxo,
me